Remember that gargantuan Gramma project that I told you all about? The compilation of photos that just kept on growing? The ambitious endeavor that seemed to take on a life all its own (and carried me right along with it)? The book that started off as fifty pages but ended up at two hundred and fifty pages? Yeah, that project. Well…it’s done. Complete. Finished. Completely finished. Can you feel my relief from where you are? Because it’s overwhelmingly sweet on this end.
I celebrated in my usual way–chocolate and solitude. It’s probably not all that original, but it’s my go-to … Continue reading
My Instagram followers already know that many of my post ideas appear like lightning strikes out of the blue. They manifest during meditation, hugely distracting me from the task at hand, and all I can do is sit by and watch helplessly as the post virtually writes itself. On the one hand, it’s pretty cool, this charged jolt of inspiration. The ideas are really good, they’re eloquently organized, deeply heartfelt. Sometimes they even squeeze a tear from my dry eye. But on the other hand, they’re a little frustrating. The transcription is never as good as the original document, and … Continue reading
Hey there, guys. Do you remember last week (after I spent a good long while talking about God), when I told you that today’s post was going to explore the subject of my guru? Well…yeah. Sorry, but it doesn’t look like that’s going to happen quite yet. It will–it most definitely will be a subject I’ll happily dig into–but right now I’m so hopelessly distracted by my most recent project that I decided to put it off for just a little bit longer. Mostly because Guru is a subject near and dear to my heart, and my fragmented mind … Continue reading
Titiksha – (Sanskrit) Endurance or forbearance to withstand all forms of challenges in life
When I first stumbled across the concept of titiksha I knew immediately that this was something I wanted. Wanted pretty desperately, actually. Even-mindedness in all conditions. I could only imagine a life in which I could interact with other humans and not get angry. Or defensive. Or frustrated. It sounded too good to be true for someone like me, whose ego flared at the slightest inconvenience. Sure, it worked for the monks in their quiet little monasteries, but could it work for me in a loud … Continue reading
I’m going to start today’s story about twenty years back, although when I think about it, it was likely brewing long before then. Probably back in the days of my childhood, when a unicorn poster hung in my closet spurring all kinds of fantastical and whimsical daydreams. But this twenty-year-old memory is the most vivid, so we’ll start my story from there…
I collected the girls one sunny summer afternoon and we set out on our daily walk. One or two of them were settled comfortably in the stroller, probably sucking down a juice box and nibbling on crackers, while … Continue reading
I’m not sure if it’s a new trend in our culture, or just something that I’ve only recently become aware of, but more and more I see the push–the encouragement–to cry. To be your “real” and raw self. It always gives me this strange kind of feeling, like I’m somehow being non-authentic by not feeling the need to shed tears. If I was prone to guilt I’d probably try and muster up some crocodile tears for the cause. But instead I’m always left here–dry-eyed–wondering if it’s just one more behavior that separates me from the norm. Not abnormal because … Continue reading
My mom was raised a Catholic. So initially, I was, too.
Catholicism was never the best fit for her soft and malleable spirit, and instead of leading her to profound truths and realizations, it led her to worry, guilt, and fear. Or maybe it’s more accurate to say that it fanned those flames already within her. But that intentional spiritual seeking–the one that really has you digging deep–seems to most often take place later in life. And at seventeen she was far too busy with other things. Things like finishing high school and navigating the new waters of both … Continue reading
(Please hit the jump to recipe button above to be taken directly to the Vegan Maple Granola recipe!)
I would say that, on average, it takes me about three days to compose a blog post. The first day is really just spent furiously typing; a release of those thoughts banging around up there. The ideas are still jumbled, the whole story hasn’t been formed, and it’s just a pressing matter of getting the words down on paper. Recently, I added a blog tool that helps me with SEO (search engine optimization) so that when you type something into … Continue reading
Today I have a story. A true story, a happy story. Something of a love story, even. One that starts with my gramma, moves through me, continues on through Jordan, and hopefully keeps on going into forever. This is the kind of story that renews my hope that yes, one person can definitely make a difference. Even when the world wants to tell me, No. You’re much too small. Even when the world tries to make me feel powerless and weak. Even when the world tries to silence me. This story makes me feel like a warrior, equipped with only … Continue reading
When I put up my Instagram post fifteen days ago I honestly had no idea that it was going to be my last. I knew I was tired and starting to feel burnt out. I knew I was always a little bit behind on things and could never quite catch up. I knew I felt kind of frustrated and frequently frazzled, but what did that mean? Like, exactly. Did I need to scale back? Or just take a rest? Or maybe even hike out to the middle of the woods and stay there for the next 30 years? Really, … Continue reading